The Road Starts Here

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I have been saved and was baptized since 2014, before and during this time I was dealing with chronic depression and my walk with God was full of doubt and confusion, trying to find myself in the Lord was difficult for me, God in His grace and mercy delivered me from that depression but I managed to however leave the church for 5 years being a rebellious child not surrendering fully to Christ but using Him as a crutch for my gain once I was delivered I fell back into the world as the church calls it backsliding. Not realizing that Jesus is married to the backslider Jeremiah 3:14-15

Fast Forward to 2019, my depression came back, and God had me in such a way that I had no choice but to repent of all that I have done within those 5 years I mean crying on my knees, face down, and after I had done repenting  I felt truly delivered and now Satan had to let me go for good, it was an experience I will never forget. Fast Forward again to 2021,Living with my sister and working, my life has been progressing well. I find guidance through my faith, engaging in reading and worship, and although I’m still seeking my path, I remain steadfast in my journey. One day, while watching a video on my phone, the topic of losing one’s salvation was brought up. The argument presented was affirmative, suggesting that it is indeed possible to lose salvation. This prompted a period of self-reflection and internal struggle, where I faced accusations from within about past actions, leading to fears of damnation. and God didn’t love me, I had a slim chance of making it into heaven

But I’m here to tell you

Satan the enemy is the accuser of the brethren, In Revelation 12:10, The Bible lets us know that the defeated dragon, which is Satan is the accuser of our brothers and sisters, he accuses us day and night before our God. Even though I have been praying, reading, journaling, and hearing from God the enemy still found his way into my mind, I started crying, bawling crying, he put fear once again in my heart, I think I stayed up half the night with this on my mind asking God to forgive me and re-repenting all my sins that I have done.

I was defeated by the enemy, but My Father came in my weakest moment and spoke 2 words:

Justification and Sanctification

  ^{If you confess with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. 10 One believes with the heart, resulting in righteousness, and one confesses with the mouth, resulting in salvation. 11 For the Scripture says, Everyone who believes on him will not be put to shame, 12 since there is no distinction between Jew and Greek, because the same Lord of all richly blesses all who call on him. 13 For everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.}